PART 1
I was a 13 when I first fell in love,
I know people say you cant love or know what it is a such a yooung age,
but I had never felt this way about a guy before,
and i mean never..
so i met this guy named liam,
I met him when i was living in america.
he was from china. at first we were enemies,
litterally. i always denied liking him, but inside i knew that i did..
id only known him for a year, and I didnt know him that well, but i knew a few things,
and id never felt this way about anyone.. that was the first time i ever loved someone.
so at the end of the year we started going out.y
but we werent like the couple who hollds hands and hugs both of us were to shy .
anyway, so one day he had to move away, back to china.
but i wasnt really sad, and we didnt break up.. i guess we didtn know how..
so i lost contact with him, for 6 months and you know you think someone doesnt feel the same anymore so you move on right?
so i started dating this otehr guy named daniel.
he was a really good guy, but not the one for me.. cause liam always had a place in my heart
and i couldnt replace him with someone.. so i broke up with daniel.
and then a few months later i dated another guy, and it ended up the same.
So i moved to Australia,
and me and liam got in contact again..
he was my boyfriend still,
I didnt know if he had a girlfriend earlier.. so i didnt tell him about my boyfriends,
cause he never asked, so neither did i.
anyway a few months later he was coming back here to visit. i was soo excited, so excited that it took me hours to get ready cause i had to look perfect..
so we had planed to meet outside of coles at the mall.. :L lol dont ask its just our thing.. or used to be atleast. i didnt have my phone with me at the time so i didnt realise how long ive been sittign there, i just paniked everytime i saw someone that looked like him, annd then he finnally came,
god i looked like such an idiot.. he asked me how long id been sitting there for and all i said was
oh! hi and just hugged him for 10 mintues.. didnt even answer the question. and i didnt realise till later and i was yelling at myself in my head. so we started walkign towards the movies and then he stopped and gave me hes jacket and put hes hand out (first time he ever did that)
i couldnt even put into words how happy i was.. that was the first time i saw him in months,
so it was really awkward, nothing to talk about,
so i tried to start a converstation.. and i said omg your tall . again i looked like an idiot.
he didnt say anything.
but i didnt care that it was silent i just loved the feeling of him holding my hand.
so we got to the movies and sat down, he was alot ttaller than me cause im short. but i mean hes really talllll.. almost 6 feet lol. anyways yeah we sat down and hed put hes hand around me and i put my head on hes chest and i had so much butterflies in my stomach that it was making me go crazy so i told him ifelt sick, and he asked is there anything i can do? and i just didnt say anything :L so he bought me some water..
then he said we should walk around,
and then we ended up walking around for hours and hours .. LOL
wed randomly walk adn sit then walk again..
so we started watching the movie, and hes cousin called during the movie,
and he was yelling at her lol. and the whole time through the whole movie, he was just holding me, and i wish i could just stay like that forever.
later he had to leave and he said goodbye twice :L and he let me keep hes jacket..
so i took it home and i walked home cause i didnt want my mum to see my like this
cause i ws so happy and shed be all anoying about it. so i went to sleep that night, with hes jacket on ( i must sound liek an idiot but yeh)
I swear everything felt like a dream.. so i woke up and i didtn have hes jacket on so i
was gonan liek cry cause i thought id had another dream.. and none of it happend,
but then i saw hes jacket on my bed so i realxed.
I was going to see him that day
so it took me ages to get ready again,
i was waiting at the same place, without my phone again cause i left it in sydney which was
a big mistake, thsi time i noticed id been sitting for a very long time. so i was beggining to think he stood me up, but he actaully sent me a txt saying to meet later.
anyways so i started to cry.. lol just a bit though and i went outside then came back in,
i saw hes cousin cause liam told them to come and get me. so liam sitll wasnt here and i was just sitting with hes cousin and her friend. and then i saw him and i stayed in the same place like an idiot for 5 minutes cause i was scared :L anyway eventually igot up cause he was waiting for me too and i hugged him like i usually did.. so we went to the city with hes cousin which really pissed me off cause i wanted to be alone with him.. but its ok cause we walked behind them and sat
with eachother. oh and when i saw him i couuldnt decicde to where hes jacket or not
and once again i looked so frekin stupid and wore it but he told me it looked good on me..
but it was past my ass it looked weird.. :L
anyway i spent the whole day with him.
and went back to sydney.
the next weekend came and i was ghoing to canberra to see him again,
once again i was excited. on the way to canbera i came on a bus,
and i thought to myself that i wanted to say I love you before he left,
but i didt know wwhen it was the right time to say it, or if id look like an idiot again.
once again liam was late. siggh. he alawys told me to meet him at this time blahh blahh so i decided to come an hour lateer and he came an hour later too apologising again for being late >:( i ignored him for liek 10 mins but i couldnt be mad at him.
and this was my last weekend with him and i wouldnt see him for a while.
while we were walkking around he said he could see hes dad and then told me to hide somewhere :L so we did,
and then i saw my mUM oh my god.. the worst. she was screaming my name out and i ws sooo emberassed so i told liam to go ahead and that ill catch up later and then eventually i went back to him and he was laughing at me cause i was pised off. and thenn AGIAN i saw my mum and then he told me that he saw them so i started walking fast.
we were waiting at the bus stop and idk why everytime we were there therd always be retarded people their and i mean litterally retarded.
so we were on the way to the city again on the bus.
and i kept telling myself say it say it.
but i didnt, and suddenly hed asked what i was thinking and i said i dont know :L
cause i didnt want to tell him cause itd be weird so i aksed him what he was thinking
and he said that he was thinking about him leaving.. and i didnt say anything
that day we were meant to go paddle boating but we missed the stop for that.
so we just went to the mall instead, wed just randomly hug all the time, for like 20 minutes..
and eventually we were on our way back, and id decided to say i love you.
first i said liam and he didtn say anything so i got embarrsed annd didnt say anything
so 5 mins later i just said i love you . and he said i love you too and then said something after that i didnt hear properly so i didnt say anything. hed ask what i was thinking alot and i always said nothing, i made such an idiot of myself all the time. i didnt eat at all when i was with him cause i thought id look weird or something so i was starving when i went home.
after we got back he offered to walk me home, and i said ok
so we started walking and then some car was swearing at me lol idk why.
and then liam gave him the finger so the car stopped and liam told me to stay where i waas
and he walked up to the guy and idk what they were saying,
but i felt like he really cared..
so we started wallking again and my legs were really hurting so i stopped
and then he gave me a piggy back and i looked down hes shirt. (i couldnt help it i could already see down it anyways ) :P
that was the last day i ever saw him.
and hed said goobdye and he said i love you so much..
and hearing those words .. omg.
so i said it back and then said goodbye
i watched him walk away.. and i wanted to go after him and tell him not
to go..
anyways a few months later
i hadnt talked to him.. and hed go online rarely.
this is where it all started.
there was a girl named sandra,
and i knew shed liked liam and id always thought what if they end up together?
but josie told me not to worry, i should trust him .
so i didnt worry cause I thought he loved me..
i thought about him everysingle day, and i kept hes jacket close to me
alot.
so one day i was on facebook it was one day before my birthday
and i notcied liam wanst my friend on facebook
i was calm and i thought maybe he dleted hes facebook
so i went to visit hes page to see if it was still there..
and i wasnt, he dletd josie, my sister and others..
and then i went on someone elses acccoutn and say
in a realtionp with sandra.
i thought maybe she hacked hes account..
but i was wrong,
i couldnt stop crying, and i called josie
and i coudlnt even explain to her what happend cause i was just crying
the whole time.
I know people say you cant love or know what it is a such a yooung age,
but I had never felt this way about a guy before,
and i mean never..
so i met this guy named liam,
I met him when i was living in america.
he was from china. at first we were enemies,
litterally. i always denied liking him, but inside i knew that i did..
id only known him for a year, and I didnt know him that well, but i knew a few things,
and id never felt this way about anyone.. that was the first time i ever loved someone.
so at the end of the year we started going out.y
but we werent like the couple who hollds hands and hugs both of us were to shy .
anyway, so one day he had to move away, back to china.
but i wasnt really sad, and we didnt break up.. i guess we didtn know how..
so i lost contact with him, for 6 months and you know you think someone doesnt feel the same anymore so you move on right?
so i started dating this otehr guy named daniel.
he was a really good guy, but not the one for me.. cause liam always had a place in my heart
and i couldnt replace him with someone.. so i broke up with daniel.
and then a few months later i dated another guy, and it ended up the same.
So i moved to Australia,
and me and liam got in contact again..
he was my boyfriend still,
I didnt know if he had a girlfriend earlier.. so i didnt tell him about my boyfriends,
cause he never asked, so neither did i.
anyway a few months later he was coming back here to visit. i was soo excited, so excited that it took me hours to get ready cause i had to look perfect..
so we had planed to meet outside of coles at the mall.. :L lol dont ask its just our thing.. or used to be atleast. i didnt have my phone with me at the time so i didnt realise how long ive been sittign there, i just paniked everytime i saw someone that looked like him, annd then he finnally came,
god i looked like such an idiot.. he asked me how long id been sitting there for and all i said was
oh! hi and just hugged him for 10 mintues.. didnt even answer the question. and i didnt realise till later and i was yelling at myself in my head. so we started walkign towards the movies and then he stopped and gave me hes jacket and put hes hand out (first time he ever did that)
i couldnt even put into words how happy i was.. that was the first time i saw him in months,
so it was really awkward, nothing to talk about,
so i tried to start a converstation.. and i said omg your tall . again i looked like an idiot.
he didnt say anything.
but i didnt care that it was silent i just loved the feeling of him holding my hand.
so we got to the movies and sat down, he was alot ttaller than me cause im short. but i mean hes really talllll.. almost 6 feet lol. anyways yeah we sat down and hed put hes hand around me and i put my head on hes chest and i had so much butterflies in my stomach that it was making me go crazy so i told him ifelt sick, and he asked is there anything i can do? and i just didnt say anything :L so he bought me some water..
then he said we should walk around,
and then we ended up walking around for hours and hours .. LOL
wed randomly walk adn sit then walk again..
so we started watching the movie, and hes cousin called during the movie,
and he was yelling at her lol. and the whole time through the whole movie, he was just holding me, and i wish i could just stay like that forever.
later he had to leave and he said goodbye twice :L and he let me keep hes jacket..
so i took it home and i walked home cause i didnt want my mum to see my like this
cause i ws so happy and shed be all anoying about it. so i went to sleep that night, with hes jacket on ( i must sound liek an idiot but yeh)
I swear everything felt like a dream.. so i woke up and i didtn have hes jacket on so i
was gonan liek cry cause i thought id had another dream.. and none of it happend,
but then i saw hes jacket on my bed so i realxed.
I was going to see him that day
so it took me ages to get ready again,
i was waiting at the same place, without my phone again cause i left it in sydney which was
a big mistake, thsi time i noticed id been sitting for a very long time. so i was beggining to think he stood me up, but he actaully sent me a txt saying to meet later.
anyways so i started to cry.. lol just a bit though and i went outside then came back in,
i saw hes cousin cause liam told them to come and get me. so liam sitll wasnt here and i was just sitting with hes cousin and her friend. and then i saw him and i stayed in the same place like an idiot for 5 minutes cause i was scared :L anyway eventually igot up cause he was waiting for me too and i hugged him like i usually did.. so we went to the city with hes cousin which really pissed me off cause i wanted to be alone with him.. but its ok cause we walked behind them and sat
with eachother. oh and when i saw him i couuldnt decicde to where hes jacket or not
and once again i looked so frekin stupid and wore it but he told me it looked good on me..
but it was past my ass it looked weird.. :L
anyway i spent the whole day with him.
and went back to sydney.
the next weekend came and i was ghoing to canberra to see him again,
once again i was excited. on the way to canbera i came on a bus,
and i thought to myself that i wanted to say I love you before he left,
but i didt know wwhen it was the right time to say it, or if id look like an idiot again.
once again liam was late. siggh. he alawys told me to meet him at this time blahh blahh so i decided to come an hour lateer and he came an hour later too apologising again for being late >:( i ignored him for liek 10 mins but i couldnt be mad at him.
and this was my last weekend with him and i wouldnt see him for a while.
while we were walkking around he said he could see hes dad and then told me to hide somewhere :L so we did,
and then i saw my mUM oh my god.. the worst. she was screaming my name out and i ws sooo emberassed so i told liam to go ahead and that ill catch up later and then eventually i went back to him and he was laughing at me cause i was pised off. and thenn AGIAN i saw my mum and then he told me that he saw them so i started walking fast.
we were waiting at the bus stop and idk why everytime we were there therd always be retarded people their and i mean litterally retarded.
so we were on the way to the city again on the bus.
and i kept telling myself say it say it.
but i didnt, and suddenly hed asked what i was thinking and i said i dont know :L
cause i didnt want to tell him cause itd be weird so i aksed him what he was thinking
and he said that he was thinking about him leaving.. and i didnt say anything
that day we were meant to go paddle boating but we missed the stop for that.
so we just went to the mall instead, wed just randomly hug all the time, for like 20 minutes..
and eventually we were on our way back, and id decided to say i love you.
first i said liam and he didtn say anything so i got embarrsed annd didnt say anything
so 5 mins later i just said i love you . and he said i love you too and then said something after that i didnt hear properly so i didnt say anything. hed ask what i was thinking alot and i always said nothing, i made such an idiot of myself all the time. i didnt eat at all when i was with him cause i thought id look weird or something so i was starving when i went home.
after we got back he offered to walk me home, and i said ok
so we started walking and then some car was swearing at me lol idk why.
and then liam gave him the finger so the car stopped and liam told me to stay where i waas
and he walked up to the guy and idk what they were saying,
but i felt like he really cared..
so we started wallking again and my legs were really hurting so i stopped
and then he gave me a piggy back and i looked down hes shirt. (i couldnt help it i could already see down it anyways ) :P
that was the last day i ever saw him.
and hed said goobdye and he said i love you so much..
and hearing those words .. omg.
so i said it back and then said goodbye
i watched him walk away.. and i wanted to go after him and tell him not
to go..
anyways a few months later
i hadnt talked to him.. and hed go online rarely.
this is where it all started.
there was a girl named sandra,
and i knew shed liked liam and id always thought what if they end up together?
but josie told me not to worry, i should trust him .
so i didnt worry cause I thought he loved me..
i thought about him everysingle day, and i kept hes jacket close to me
alot.
so one day i was on facebook it was one day before my birthday
and i notcied liam wanst my friend on facebook
i was calm and i thought maybe he dleted hes facebook
so i went to visit hes page to see if it was still there..
and i wasnt, he dletd josie, my sister and others..
and then i went on someone elses acccoutn and say
in a realtionp with sandra.
i thought maybe she hacked hes account..
but i was wrong,
i couldnt stop crying, and i called josie
and i coudlnt even explain to her what happend cause i was just crying
the whole time.
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