bored so felt like writing a blog,
so today had school like always.
and as usual with crazy insane abo bestie aka josie
with her singing and dance moves :L the worst.
but it always puts a smile on my face.. AHAHAH not always a good thing cause
its embarrasing. and NO josie you CANNOT dance, or sing. but dw
i still love you.. even if youre retarded :L

bought taylor swift concert tickets today, freakin
100 bucks. now soo bored and facebooking , reading a retarded persons blog and
on msn. LOL. & also new moon in a few weeks with faten and that. :D but some abo is a bitch
and wont come cause shes A BITCH. :)


Ive Learned from my mistakes.
& I still imagine you with me,
I still picture it in my head,
i know its not right,
but what can i say its not like I can help it.
but im trying to move on..
taking it one step at a time..
hurts more.. when a person you love doesnt love you back..
and when your stuck wondering if they ever did..
if you ever meant anything to them..
even as friend..

and you spend all your time just thinking of them,
and their not thinking of you,
not feeling the least bit of guilt.. not even a tiny bit
and you learn that they were a lie and every lie was told right infront of you but to blind to notice., and you only just realised
that they changed, and didnt really know them..
and then just hating yourself
for letting everything pass by..
and thinking how pathetic you are even if its not your fault.
and just how much stuff you have to carry around
all the pain and the memories and your heart telling you that you love him,
and your mind telling you to move on and that you hate him..
that %99 of you wants that person back but only %1 doesnt.

people asking how that person is going and having to tell them
"we're not together.." and takes a while for me to answer and at times I wanna say good, and smile.. and imagine the way i want to be ..
and just thinking of why your gone.. the reason..
that a girl became between us and you let it happen..
and that you dont care for me..

I know i'll found another.




lost days, pictures fade..



even though your gone and far away,
I feel you all around
I think about it every single day
you got away somehow..

I cant sleep
its hard to breathe, and I still feel you nxt to me..
now i can see; the first on is the one, when it comes to a broken heart..
your first love, yeh your so young and it feels like yur falling apart..